Quality Time

So I have been really feeling the need to have one on one quality time with Janie. For her birthday she got a cute cupcake making kit and I thought this would be perfect to do together, just the girls. We had a fabulous time, bonding, laughing, talking giggling the whole time. She couldn't get enough and it just confirmed to me that I am the best mom ever!

Okay.... so for the real story. We got everything out, I put a movie on for Aaron, so Janie and I wouldn't be bothered by him. The whole time all she wanted to do was watch the movie. I was mostly irritated because she wasn't paying any attention and I basically did everything myself. I am trying, do a I get points for that???

I will keep trying. I think there are times in our lives that we are prompted to do things for a reason. I don't know the reason but I really feel like she needs this bonding with me. It could be because I am realizing that I have a lot of memories from being 7 and I've been hearing/ reading a lot about the role mothers play in their child's life. Duh Right?! I know that but for some reason I am feeling like I need to do more and most importantly be more present for my sweet little children!

Something I am going to do to have some fun with the kids is, I am going to start a Journal Jar with the kids. I have a bunch of questions and I am going to buy a nice notebook. Each week for family night I am going to pull a question from the jar and we can talk to the kids about it and record their answers. Not only will it be cool to have in the future but I think it will be a really fun activity for us all! Hopefully it will run more smoothly then our cupcake bonding! : ) Despite our cupcake "bonding"I was able to get Janie to take her eyes off the TV for a few cute pictures! These pictures aren't worth a thousand words, especially since they really aren't accurate for what was really happening!

Mother's Day/ Birthday

I had a nice weekend with both my birthday and Mother's Day (although the hot dog dinner on Mother's Day wasn't the most impressive thing, especially since we didn't have buns AND we had company!) I call it the white trash Mother's Day dinner! :) Maybe I should of taken over, especially since the company said, "wow I haven't had hot dogs in 30 years!" (haha) but it was Mother's Day and dang it I wanted a true day off. Looking back I think I should have postponed Mother's Day for a week! Oh well, I didn't have to cook dinner! I feel like I can't complain really because I have felt really blessed to have Jay. Not to get sappy here, BUT we had company on Sunday and they are staying all week. Talking with them has made me appreciate Jay and ALL that he does for our family, even the bunless hot dogs on Mother's Day!

I don't love my birthday or Mother's Day anymore, I feel a lot of loss on those days and I can't explain why. I know Sarah wants me to be happy, but for some reason I really struggle with being happy on those days. I was just talking to Jay the morning of my birthday and saying that I can't believe it's been so long since I've cried....well the facets were turned on all day! In a way I feel sorry for myself, I haven't worked it all out in my head on why (well besides the obvious), but why I pick my special days to feel that way. Maybe because it is more focused on me and that's were my mind goes??? I must say though there is nothing like a good cry! It actually made me feel better getting it all out!

Here are just cute pictures of the kids! Aren't they sweet!!

Cuddly Sarah! I miss you baby doll!!

Aaron taking PB Bear out to ice-cream. PB Bear is the preschool class bear that got to come home with Aaron for a couple of days.

Sweet Janie! This is actually a couple months old, Janie now doesn't have any front teeth!

My little Janie is growing up!

Janie celebrated her birthday last Saturday with a fun all girl TEA PARTY. She had such a good time, her favorite part was when they all did their own make-up and hair. So cute! I can't believe Janie is 7. Jay and I have been married for 12.5 years. I think to myself, what did we do those first 5.5 years of marriage?? We've had so much go on these last 7 years!

Here are some cute pictures of her party.

Janie before her party. Like her dress? She put it together herself. It's a princess dress with a separate skirt pulled up to her chest. Pretty cute, huh?

So excited waiting for her friends!

Janie and her friends having "tea" (really Mango Peach juice, yummmm) and small tea sandwiches!

Janie and her friends with their hair done and make-up on!

Janie is still a sweet heart with a little dash of sass! I love it. She is so concerned about others and making sure Aaron is included in things (except her all girl party!), but she also is really good about not forgetting about herself. I think there is a fine line between selfishness and losing who you are. I hope at this young age she continues to see how important she really is!